shut my eyes a second, remind myself that no one else reads these things anyway, and say what i only wanted to say to myself anyway.
i want for him to decide he needs to forge his way through the other universe and see me,
i want that one Knight whose ember smoulders for only me. i want to hear him saying,
you are so brilliant.
you are so fun to be with.
you are so beautiful.
you complete me.
you are the only woman i want to have a family with.
sometimes i see myself being 50 years old in a cyborg body looking young and beautiful like Motoko Kusanagi, pining over having outlived my chance to have a biological child of my own production..